Thoughts on Freshman Year

Well friends we fininshed it. We finished our first year of high school. We are no longer fresh meat. But before the celebration i just wanted to look back on myself and how i've changed. I am no longer the same guy a lot of people knew at the beginning of the year. I've lost a lot of friends and my personality has changed almost as constant as someone changes clothes. well i guess the only place to start is the beginning. I guess my downfall began with pride. I had an inability to let someone tell me i was wrong even i was right. I refused to listen anymore because after all i had been right so many times in the past. but i see now that i did some great things for people but when it became more of a job than an actual need to help i found myself losing control. I started hanging out with a not so great crowd. I have never done drugs or anythin like that but these people seemed to be loving life and enjoying it. I know now that was a lie. I found myself more and more depressed and hatred toward the world until i re-established one friendship. It was this moment of clarity that might have saved me. I began if you would to rise from the ashes. I resurrected my old nicknames and personalities and i finally began to rebuild me. And this time i wasn't supposed to act a certain way for certain people. I learned that being humble and listening can sometimes be the easiest way to actually argue your point and win. So don't ever buy into the lies of people. Don't ever lose yourself in a search to find yourself and most of all let your experiences guide your decision, life, and personality.

Groups, Clicks, Friends

We all have groups of friends. We all met each other by getting to know each other...if that makes sense. but yea we then go on to base our lives around this group of friends. In fact the only thing we strive for sometimes is to make the group happy even at a personal cost to oneself. And once we reach this point we become incapable of helping each other as friends because you always have to ask yourself. What would the group think? You know what forget the "group". Sure its perfectly fine to have tons of friends but don't ever compromise your beliefs or feelings to make a group happy. Diversify your friends. Hang out with the emo's or jock's or goth's. They might not look like you but some of them can affect your life in great ways. and plus some are not as weird or stuck up as you might think. Either way you see it just remember that if a group of friends or even one friend tries to make you do something to make other people happy and it hurts you they probably aren't your friend. And that's the way i see that.

Life

Okay life. basically who understands it? raise your hands now....yea i didn't think very many hands would go up. And if you did raise your hand....congratulations this is a blog and no one can see it anyway. But come on i mean who does understand it completely. Why is it that when you want something it usually is the only thing you can not have? Why is the right thing always harder than anything else? How can you try so hard and still come up short? But then again maybe we aren't supposed to have what we want because if we get it we dont know wat to do with it. Maybe the right thing is always the hardest thing because maybe that teaches the value of right over wrong and maybe when we come up short after all of our hard work maybe it shows us just how far we can go. A wise man once said perfection is a direction not a goal. And maybe life is kinda like that too. Maybe by questioning life itself thats how we're supposed to live it. So do right, believe, hope for a better tommorow and always ask why. and thats the way i see it

The Way I See It

Okay first thing you need to know about this blog. These are MY opinions, MY viewpoints, MY ideas, and MY solutions. If you don't like what i write about then don't read it. It's common sense people. Of course the way i have been seeing it for a quite a while a lot of you readers could prolly do with a wake up call.